Roller Coaster Ride

Up and down went the roller coaster

Never to stop or to take a break

All I could do is lay absent in that fast moving circus vehicle.

Screams whiffing the air

Smells like rotten memories

While I sniff around for some fresh air.

Those hurtful moments open the doors of ecstasy

Yet I write it down - the emotions

Cos tomorrow I won't remember

what it feels like today

And today I don't feel like

Tomorrow will ever come.

Know the depth of emptiness I feel

And how those long chapters of emptiness kept filling me

Like it was forever and yeah it is forever

But I can keep writing how I feel

For every next day I wake up to new jar of emotions that

No one created yet that existed

somewhere deep and unfound.